MY DRIVE

I took a trip to Georgia this weekend to visit family and every time I visit I come back home feeling some type of way.  I have this "something" inside of me that is not fulfilled.  My life is very chaotic, I have two degrees and I am working on a third, yet my job doesn't pay me my worth.  I am not happy with my job but I am thankful I HAVE a job.  I struggle daily with which direction my life should go in.  It is time for me to make some serious changes but I sometimes feel as if I've isolated myself from people because it's the only way I deal with emotions.  I wonder if I should move to Georgia but the majority of my family is here in AL.  I'm afraid of the unknown but I feel like I would have more opportunities in GA.  I guess I am just lost.  However, as I was riding to GA with my children I felt a sense of calm come over me on the drive. On the way back it was a sense of dread which is so crazy. My reflection was where my life was was and where I wanted to it to be.  I have so much potential but I think I need help..push..or someone in my corner saying GO FOR IT!!!!  I don't have that.  However, I am a patient person.  As I wait to be shown the sign I look at my two beautiful boys and they are the reason I decided to go back to school. I will NOT give up.  I will NOT give up.  They are my drive.  They are my motivation.  What is your motivation?

Ash

Challenges of the day

Today I woke up with more energy than I've had in the past few days.  I am always on the go.  I did my typical quick morning prayer, got on facebook, got my kids up, warmed up breakfast and shoved them out of the door.  The only "me" time I have is the few minutes  I spend getting ready for work and driving in.  All I could think about is I should be more grateful but I really hate going to work.  The energy is wrong, everybody wants to be the boss.  I deal with it by checking out mentally.   I go in...look at my watch and start counting down until it's time to go.  I had an epiphany one day while sitting at my desk. I need a change.  A new career, a new sense of purpose, something to keep me from sinking mentally.  Baby steps but  I will get there.  Thank God for exercise!  It's my stress reliever.  I rid myself of the emotional toxins that invade my body daily with exercise.

Don't knock it till you try it!!!

Ash

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